Ten

2000-2010

This was the decade that I feel I 'grew up',  so to speak.  In many minor and major incidents my life and myself changed.  I was going to list them in order of importance but I don't think they could or should be ranked, so chronologically it is.

Here goes:

2000-I manage being independent (just and very badly).  No men.  No handouts from ma and pa.  I realise that my boss is taking advantage and I make the very grown up action of finding a new job and quitting the one I had face to face with a demon bitch of a boss.

2001-I leave the ugliest mofo of a boyfriend (spew spew spew) and wisen up.


2002-I start to stop hating myself :)

2003-I begin to realise I am making some very silly decisions and I am the only person responsible for taking my life anywhere better.  I quit the city and hide at the beach and decide on my next move.

2004-I realise that returning to the town you grew up in does not necessarily have to be with tail between legs.  I come home and start my degree.

2005-I meet the love of my life.  I suddenly understand that I am a little shit when it comes to my parents.  I grow up and show some respect.

2006-I graduate and marry the dream man.

2007-I bag my dream job, move into a stunning house in the country and most importantly find out I am happily pregnant.  Life is amazing.  Then it all falls apart.  We have to move from the house.  I am stressed out.  Hubby is stressed out.  Our beautiful son is stillborn.  I am broken.  I leave my job and bow out from life in a sobbing puddle of misery.

2008-My saviour is born in the form of my angelic little girl.  She changes my world from dark to light.  She saves me.  My darling hubby is broken.  One baby in heaven and another born prematurely and needing surgery, a sick and anxious wife, has taken it's toll and he finally cracks.

2009-We buy our own home!  Hubby is getting better.  I am pregnant again

2010-The youngest darling is born very prematurely but makes it home after six weeks.  She is perfect.  Hubby is better.  He is the dream man again.  We have survived.  Every moment is to be experienced and to be cherished.

I haven't listed lots of other important things.  Cancer in the family.  New nieces, nephew, brother in law.  Falling outs.  Purchases.  There is a lot that happens in ten years!  I am a different person than the one that was there in the year 2000.  I am nicer I think.  I am stronger.  I am wiser. I am happier and sadder all at the same time.  I am content but I still dream.   I wonder what the next ten will bring?

Sunset.  Nelson, New Zealand.