Ever wondered how you can be right next to someone but still be so unbearably lonely? I'm sure I can't be the only one.
I spend all day with kids whom I love and adore. They are perfect. But they are children and can't give you that adult conversation I crave.
I have a husband that comes home every night but hardly has a word to say to me. He is tired of course. We are busy with the house and kids of course. We take each other for granted of course.
I have people that are friends because we are in the same domestic boat. We are parents. Our kids are similar ages. We make the effort to be friends during the week. We don't really know each other. Not enough to dislike each other anyway. Or honestly to like each other.
So there it is. I am lonely. I am in a house full of people. I have a busy life with a day that stops only when I sleep and I am the loneliest I have ever been in my life.
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It's been written about by so many, but it is so true! You absoutely can be lonely even in a crowd full of people.
ReplyDeleteI am similar, but different. During the day at work I rarely feel lonely. It is a hectic, full on demanding and long day, usually not too much time for loneliness. For me it is the evenings and weekends. Haven't clicked yet that well with many up here and the ones that I kind of have use these times to spend with their partner or families. Plus, most all have kids, and as I have none, I'm not included in that group. Do cats and fish count??
Chin up hon, keep your eyes on the prize, develop your business and be one step closer to that paradise you crave xxx
It is really hard. And I get you with the 'kids club'. I'm in it but no longer fit in the 'no kids club'. I'm going to make spending time with friends and getting to know them so they are 'real' friend a priority. Cocktails anyone?... :)
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